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June 25,2009 - July 10, 2009 3:14pm
Buncha shit been goin on lately... lets see... Goodbyes are awful :( Uncle Darren left on the 5th of July so that he can be back in Germany by monday 8am :( we all had a lot of fun while it lasted :) I dunno bout everyone else but I know I had some decent memories there and a ton of fun :) I was really sad that time was up so fast I do kinda hoped we wuda all spent more time together. Pooba said he's leaving in September I hope he stays motivated to do so... Uncle Darren don't come back til December 24. So where did I leave off last time....ok yea Chelly left on the 20th of June she had almost missed her flight lol... blondes *rolls eyes* lol.. I was pretty sad when she left :( no more girly feminine time lol im not very girly lol so I suppose she opened a door a bit of trying to look purdy since I normally don't do much maintenance when it comes to outer beauty most ill do is straighten my hair some more and some chapstick lol.. I don't like heels but I can manage I suppose (had a bet with pooba a while back bout heels lol I won ^_^ the bet was I cudnt last a whole day out side wearin heels and I won but I was pretty bitchy the whole time cuz I always wear sneakers lol.. But yea...) I've always been ashamed to be a girl cuz all the shit that goes on in a female its.... frustrating... lol... along with growin up how I did my folks wanted a boy and here I am not a boy I am still bein punished for it to this day... u might think it can't be that bad but if u knew it wud make u grateful for how u guys were brought up but I can't really complain bcuz there are others that got it worse then me so I always thank God that I at least have a roof over my head and food on the table. I am so grateful for that. As you learn more about me u will notice that im a very simple girl I love videogames but all I really need is a roof over my head, food on the table my Pooba and a decent job to keep me sane. Im not materialistic I don't like to hold on to material items im independant and I rarely ask for anything cept for love friendship and honesty. Im not perfect I am sarcastic a lot and I have a temper for slow thinkin people or slow moving people. I grew up alwaysbeing rushed even when im already 2 hours early im still bein rushed... im well mannered always polite til u push my buttons then I start cursing worser than a sailor ^_^ u will come to luv me ^_^ lol... I do think my brain is floatin about 80% of the time so I got my Pooba here, he keeps me more grounded but he's always pushing me to lighten up cuz im always serious when im stressed out... I know how to have a good time I can be outgoing when I wanna be but mostly im indoorsy I love to cook I been cooking since I was reallly young and as I grew up I took a shitloada classes to perfect my culinar arts :) I loove to host and I like being around close trusted people. I had a lot of bad shit happen to me growing up I wud like to think I've grown stronger from all that.. I draw paint sketch sing but im a horrible dancer cuz im shy and im too anal to even try.. Lol... but other then that im usually one of the guys and that's how I like it :) seeing as to how most females are jus weird with their ton of make up and stuff... but yea.. Back on topic... shortly after chelly went home she found outshes about 3-4 weeks preggo and the child is going to be named Riley Khali Samuell. LOL. But that's only if its a boy lol.. We was all pretty surprised that she was still preggo since she had to get her stomach pumped for doin rash things in the heat of the moment even if it was unbearable :( she really had us scared.... I met some new people, observed some interestly weird moments... Pooba and Uncle Darren was always pouncing each other and chasing each other lols. We all drank on 4th of July and they sang and acted stupid all night lol.. Boys will be boys lol... me and pooba had a few arguments while we were there cuz he decided he wanted to be a complete ass hole... ignoring me, tellin me he wud do something in 1 min then I end up waiting 4-9hours... and if I ask him again he wud spaz at me.... then make it all seem like its all my fault... im pregnant with his child, my grammy died 2months ago my aunt died the 26th of june I found out on the 28th I was just going thru A LOT And he jus wanted to make things worser for me by bein dramatic and talkin shit and bein a childish douchebag... he didn't even try to understand at all. :'( ......anyway............. a bunch has changed all this time, me n my "uterine rent lady" had a small talk and we made an agreement to keep a roof over my head..... she wants army health insurance when we go... >.> im pretty annoyed about this as if shecudnt get her own it must b some crazy shit cuz she want some altering done on how she looks.... I said idk bout that.. So we jus been arguin back n forth over stupid shit... well they decided to move to another house seeing as to how all my friends think my family are drug dealers since we don't stay at 1 house/apartment for longer then 6months-1year... they found this big place 2 bedrooms 1 huge livingroom a sexii bathroom and a decent kitchen and a backyard... 1,250.00/month not including gas/electric/water now... it doesn't sound too bad for that amount...get a load of this: toilet don't work right it'll run water for an hour before u can flush again, tub doesn't drain, 1st week of us bein here the lights and electrical wiring is all fucked... backyard door was gently opened by mother that hadn't ate anything all day and the thing completely came apart, next to the backyard is a gas station and a 7eleven so trucks and all sorts of obnoxious people are yellin screamin blastin music all hours of the night, the first night I got there I hadn't ate anything all afternoon and evening so it hit 1am I went to the kitchen turned on the lights OMG GIGANTIC ROACHES Everywhere!!! No it wasn't waterbugs, shit was the size of my thumb I didn't evensee the kitchen anymore they covered the whole sink all over the floor tables cabinets it was soooo disgusting I haven't lived with roaches for a good 14 years of my life cuz we clean o d fucking crazy and we don't leave anything out, so whoever was living here before us was some nasty ass mother fuckers you shuda seen it it wasn't a kitchen anymore I thought I walked in to the roach cave they're everywhere I endedup stayin on the fone wit pooba til 4amwith the lights on and goin to sleep at 6am when the sun was bright enuff to say go hide to roaches -o-" I don't like thishouse its by far the nicest LOOKING place but shiitty as hell from the inside -_- perfect example of a fine as hell bitch but she dumb as fuck and can't/dunno how to do anything >.> seems like the longer we're here the more things break for literally no reason... now the old place in elmhurst we had was 1,300.00/month electricity/water is free pay for gas only u get 2 (1big and 1 medium sized) bedrooms 1 small bathroom and 1 mediumsized kitchen no livingroom no bug problems and EVERYTHING WORKED it looks like a bad place but everything worked for 50bucks more and free electricity, I dunno about u but 50bucks of electricty a month is a week or 2. So were basically payin more for a prettier LOOKING Place but doesn't work right... am I the one that sees this as a bad investment??? Them roaches the size of my thumb x_x" ughhh this whole place sux doors are made with unfinished wood aka splinterville x_x random holes on the floor ugh tlkin bout this place makes me angry cuz we usually make smart decisions but this is jus stupid... Anyway.. I feel fat and ugly >_< I can't help the ugly but I dun gotta be fat :D lose weight 101 hopefully everything goes ok with Minime :/ me and Pooba Anniversary coming up im gonna make him a big boy meal ;) lol and some other stuff.... ;) lolz we go through rough patches and more so when were stressed over bullshit then everything gets on our nerves but in the end we always end up in each others arms as much as we fight but at the end of the day we kno we love each other while wanting to choke each other out and that's how real relationships are cuz thinkin that you'll love everything about ur partner is unrealistic naive and stupid u will never find that and I never once thought bout liking everything bout a guy cuz its fun to fight with them over silly things sometimes make up sex ;) lol but not everything.. Anywayz... ill write more when I can :p
Love, MzGummiBear<3
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